I’ve been inspired by someone I consider to be one of the coolest people I’ve ever met to do a 30 day writing challenge. She is doing it for a class but also on her tumblr, and blog. Everyday for 30 days she is going to write a letter to someone, and I considered doing the same thing but instead I’m going to write 30 days of stories. Good, bad, sad and real. Some will be short and some won’t be. And if you’re interested I’d recommend doing your own 30 day challenge of whatever it is you like to do.
Yeah so… Everything with Eddy came to a halt. It was good for a few days and then I don’t know what happened. I got annoyed with him and well I let his step brother go down on me. At least one brother could get his dick up for me, right? I also accidentally made out with Carter in his kitchen too. Since things aren’t quite working out in my favor I think I’ve been a bit boy crazy. One of the first boys that I really ever started having casual sex with Zeke, and I have been talking again. But I do know this for sure, Zeke is bad news. He’s nice to me and treats me better than the rest of the guys but I know that he is kind of a piece of shit when it comes to drugs and alcohol. Its something I shouldn’t get involved with but his fuzzy hand cuffs really get me going.
Some good news is I got my old job back so I guess I’m kind of getting my shit together. I also have been taking my brother to school and picking him up so I’ve had some real responsibilities lately.
This all really isn’t as bad as it seems. I need to figure out what the fuck I’m doing though.
OH YEAH, HAPPY VALENTINE’S DAY!
Personally I think everyone has their priorities messed up and expectations that are impossible to achieve. No one is realistic in what they want anymore. Its never enough. I think that society is changing in a way that’s unexplainable. For example, dating isn’t just plain old black & white, girl meets guy and falls in love happily ever after anymore. I couldn’t even begin to explain to my grandmother that no, were not dating but we fuck regularly and claim to not care about each other but low-key we do and neither of us want to get hurt but in the end the one who is willing to admit it first is the one going to be hurt. Its just too complicated and idiotic. And with dating apps like tinder anything and I mean anything is possible. I have friends who found the love of their life using the app, along with friends who use the app to have sex with everyone that’s as down as they are. I myself have the app just to swipe on cute boys. I’m not completely set on the idea of meeting someone over the internet, but I’m not against it either. Dating in 2017 is weird.